2008 is coming to an end and the AVN nominees have been released. Some of the nominees I have had the pleasure of talking to extensively and getting to know them and I wish them the best of luck in winning (especially Mike Ramone - he is one of the coolest people I have ever had the pleasure of working for). In the 10 months that I have been reviewing adult movies, I haven’t gotten to see everything that is up for an AVN, but I have gotten to watch and review a good number of them.
Myspace was designed to be ” my space.” I add my friends, I subscribe to the blogs I like, I have updates from the friends I choose. Everything is customized by me. I like my subscription list, but I feel like there is so much more out there to read. I like my friends, but there are more people out there to meet. I like the bulletins and status updates, but I wish, sometimes, that I could know more than the updates permit.
I think I miss the sense of community that I feel on that Yahoo Group email list. For that reason, I have created a group on Google Groups, which I invite each of you to join.
Here is the group’s description from the group’s page:
I also would love for people to share links to blogs they would like others in the group to see, to introduce each other to members they might not know, and to step back from the isolation of “Myspace” to recapture a sense of community that I believe is lacking. If you are interested, you can access the page by cutting and pasting the following: http://groups.google.com/group/myspaceinfo
Feel free to invite your friends to join . . . anyone can join at this point, although membership may be restricted if the one requirement (civility) is abused. In other words, no fighting on the list . . . it’s not cool.
I just ate the worlds lightest meal lol. Keepin the bod trim over here hehe.
NEWS NEWS NEWS NEWS yippeee my tearful prayers are being answered!
I am not ashamed instead so proud….SO PROUD to say that after YEARS and I mean YEARS of working as an actor in both background (no speaking) and small speaking parts. I have never asked for a handout. I believe in hard work. My appearance on UPN’s Girlfriends & HBO’s Entourage finally opened up doors. It’s crazy coz even though I have done like 36 National commercials I was never credited properly but yey now I am. It has helped me with leading/self portraying character offers in big films. I am so proud to say that I just got my FIRST offer to play MYSELF as a performer yey!!!! Like I get to play ME Somaya Reece “the performer” woooo I am the idol of the film and I perform my own single in the movie along side Konvict music artist Colby O’donis. Thank you to the awesome, beautiful, talented Latin Director and creator of the story Carmen Marron. She is the coooolest . I am really happy because parts were created for my personal dance crew
The Freshet Crew http://www.myspace.com/thefreshestcrew
I got them big parts in the movie and they dance along side Gwen Stefani’s Harajuku Girls. Congrats to my dancers B-Girl Britney B and Legend!! I take care of my people. So here we are performing in film GO FOR IT due to release summer of next year 
Here I am in HBO’s hit TV series Entourage haha YES I play an outspoken girl. Sound familiar? lol Don’t make me press my hair if you are gonna flake on me lol.
I spent the entire 7 months of my last relationship slowly falling for him each day and never saying a word.
Each of those days, I was the perfect girlfriend. I never argued and I never complained. I never asked for a thing. I never took too much. Still, I wasn’t good enough.
Silently inside… I was afire but you could never tell due to my cool exterior.
Terrified.
You can still lose, even by being the best person you can be and making no mistakes. That’s not fair. and I’m having trouble accepting that.
I live in this limbo of perceived perfection and paralyzing fear of rejection or failure. It’s scary- Everything.
How do you have a fear of being in a relationship AND being alone? Seriously!
(Date without attachment. Yes, but always?)
I calculate each step meticulously to seem effortless. I’m calm and never seem to let things stress me out.
That does work for me, most of the time. I’m one of the happiest people I know.
But again, balance rears its ugly head. I had a terribly terrific and painful experience last summer with my dark side and it seems I would have forgotten some of this lesson. I don’t know how to be negative.
It’s ok not to be perfect. and it’s ok to have feelings.
It’s ok to want something… to want someone.
It’s ok to get mad! It’s ok to be angry.
It’s ok to have needs and wants… and it’s ok to let them be met… or demand they be met. I cannot forget this.
I’m not one for throwing scenes or trying to get my way. Cuz I’m usually ok with whatever. Maybe I need to learn to be uncomfortable. Maybe once in awhile it’s alright to be a bitch. or crazy. or erratic.
Should everyone run away if I show any signs of human fallacy?
No. (I keep telling myself that).
Will someone love me, faults and all?
Will he forgive me?
(Better question- Can I forgive myself?)
Can’t I just stop for a moment and throw a tantrum right here on the floor?
How do you put up with being Human*?
(*because those people are crrrrrazy)
I know nothing of Tears For Sale, aka Charleston and Vendetta, other than that A) it’s the most expensive film ever made in Serbia, B) the director has been compared to Terry Gilliam, and C) the lead actresses are smoking. But boy do I want to see it.
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There was a time in my life when Christians annoyed me. I remember them approaching me, thumpin’ their Bibles with their wide-eyed warnings and goofy grins. I was confused at how they could talk about the love and salvation of Jesus and the evil and destructive Apocalypse in the same breath. I remember them cautioning that I needed to prepare myself for Christ’s return because “the end was near”. I rejected their message and inwardly scoffed at how presumptuous and brainwashed I felt they were. Looking back, I realize that I refused to listen and study the Bible because I did not want the Christians to be right - my treasures were here on earth and I was not interested in focusing on the hereafter (“There are none who are as deaf as those who do not want to hear”). However, human beings are both flesh and spirit. Although my flesh was clinging to this world, my spirit ached for the eternal - and demanded that I do my homework.
So…
fast forward, here I am - a Bible thumper. I now understand the urgency behind the wide-eyed warnings and the love and hope behind the goofy grins. I understand that the Bible stands alone as God’s word to man and that no other book in human history speaks of the future like the Bible. Just as the B.C. generations were called to study Messianic prophecy in order to recognize Christ’s First Coming, we are called to study End Times prophecy to recognize the signs of His Second Coming. I have had amazing opportunities to learn from some of the best Bible prophecy/Middle East experts from around the world. How do they know that we are headed toward the tribulation hour? We are among the first generations to understand the following:
“Rise in scoffers/deception”
The Bible warns that near the End Times, there will be a rise in people scoffing at the Bible, Christians, and talk of Christ’s return. “Scoffers will come in the last days, walking according to their own lusts, and saying “Where is the promise of His coming?” (2 Peter 3:2) If you’re scoffing right now â you are a part of prophecy fulfilled ;). There will also be a rise in false teachers, false prophets, cults, messages that contradict the Bible and appeal to people’s sinful nature. Many of us are frustrated with the blatant displays of evil and abhorrence of facts, logic, reason… how some people can’t see the obvious. Daniel 12:10 warned us that in the end “The wicked shall do wickedly; and none of the wicked shall understand, but the wise shall understand.” 2 Timothy 3:6-7 tries to explain that ignorance of the Bible will lead to deception. As my pastor put it, “If you don’t know your Bible, you will be fooled.”
“Rise in pestilence, famines, earthquakes, natural disasters”
(Matthew 24:3-7) I recently had a government official at my school site. His job was to prepare/inform our staff of the procedures for lock down/quarantine concerning the spread of highly contagious pan epidemic flus/viruses. The National Oceanic and Atmosphere Administration stated that over the past 25 years we’ve experienced an increase in super storms and earthquakes like the world has never seen. According to Rev 16:18:“There will be such a mighty and great earthquake as has not occurred since men were on the earth.” Liberals have their scapegoat ready to go: Global Warming. The Left has appropriately renamed their religion “Climate Change”… and yes, our climate is and will continue to make some serious changes.
“Rebirth of Israel”
After the Romans sacked Jerusalem in 70 AD, the Jews were scattered across the earth - just as prophecy predicted (Deuteronomy 28:64). On May 14, 1948, after almost 1900 years, Israel became a state again and the Jews returned home. This event fulfilled Bible prophecy (Deut. 30:5, Is. 11:11-12, Ez. 36:24, Is. 66:8), and was nothing short of a miracle. Through his parables, Jesus cautioned that when Israel regains sovereignty, you will know that the End Times and Kingdom of God is near.
“Wars and rumors of wars”
“For nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom.” (Matthew 24:6-7). Wars are occurring all around the world, but the ultimate and final battle will be for Jerusalem. The demonic ideology of antisemitism is on the rise again. The Bible warns us of God’s punishment on the nation’s that divide Israel’s land (yet that is EXACTLY what we are trying to do) and that in the end, ALL nations will rise up against Israel and be punished for it (Zech 12:3, Joel 3:2). Revelation 9:16 discusses an army of 200 million that (combined with pestilence and natural disasters) will wipe out a third of mankind. As the world’s population rises above 6 billion, it is increasingly possible to amass an army of 200 million, but this would have been unthinkable even 100 years ago. In Zechariah 14:12, concerning the final battle it states “Their flesh shall dissolve while they stand on their feet, their eyes shall dissolve in their sockets, and their tongues shall dissolve in their mouths.” Past generations did not understand this type of instant and complete destruction, but we do â it’s describing how the human body reacts when exposed to an H-bomb.
“Knowledge Explosion”
The book of Daniel describes a great increase of knowledge that the world will experience towards the End Times. Revelations discusses how people from around the globe will be able to access knowledge instantly and simultaneously, that people from all over the world will watch the apocalyptic events as they are unfolding. While this was incomprehensible to past generations, it is common practice for us today thanks to television/internet/satellite (can we say web cams, cell phone videos, You Tube?). Our generation also understands how technology has paved the way for “the mark of the beast” (possibly a micro chip) that a person will have to have in order to “buy or sell”. This mark will also show your allegiance to the anti-Christ and his One World Religion. According to Rev. 20:4, those who refuse the mark will be beheaded. How is it that something as barbaric and ancient as beheadings will be common practice in the future? Here’s a possibility: “I will cast dread into the heart of the infidels: Strike off their heads then, and strike off from them every finger-tip” (Koran, Sura 8:12)
“Every single country mentioned in the Scriptures, regarding the end of time, that God punishes, for attacking Israel, is Muslim today⦠Do you have 365 days, eight hours a day, so I can show you what the Bible says about the coming Islamic invasion of the world? It’s all over Scripture! God didn’t forget to tell us. You forgot to read the Bible. It is all in there.” ~Walid Shoebat
Walid Shoebat is an ex-PLO terrorist and converted Muslim. As he studied the Bible he realized that Islam’s savior, Mahdi (aka: the Twelfth Imam) is the anti-Christ of the Bible. According to Shoebat, the Bible names the anti-Christ as ruler of the world, but specifically names: “Assyrian” (Syria),”Persian” (Iran), “King of Babylon” (Iraq), “Prince of Tyre” (Lebanon), “Pharoah of Egypt”. The anti-Christ will want to change time (hello lunar calendar), change laws (hello Sharia), will have a disdain for women (hello burka) and persecute Christians, Jews and all others who refuse to accept him (hello infidels) (Daniel 7:25, 11:37, Revelations). The Islamic world has announced that Mahdi will be returning soon. According to Islamic belief, Mahdi will dominate the world, confirm a peace treaty, abolish the treaty half way through (what is known to Muslims as hudna and al-taqiyya), persecute the infidels, attempt to destroy Israel… sound familiar? It’s not only Bible prophecy (Zechariah, Daniel, Revelations) it’s Islamic prophecy as well.
Jesus says that although we will not know the exact hour, we will know He is returning by the signs. “So you also, when you see these things happening, know that it is near â at the doors”. (Mark 13:29)
With wars raging, the dollar falling, Islam rising, natural disasters and pan epidemics looming, our choice of candidates for the ’08 elections - why the goofy grin? I have found the ultimate treasure and it is not of this world.
“Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.” Matthew 6:19-20
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blessed
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Da da da da-da da
I don’t know if I can yell any louder
How many time have I kicked you outta here?
Or said something insulting?
(da da da da-da)
I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
When my heart is….broken
Da da da-da da
Please don’t leave me
Please don’t leave me
I always say how I don’t need you
But it’s always gonna come right back to this
Please, don’t leave me
How did I become so obnoxious?
What is it with you that makes me act like this?
I’ve never been this nasty
Can’t you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don’t mean it
I mean it, I promise
Da da da-da da
Please don’t leave me
Da da da-da da
Please don’t leave me (don’t leave me)
Da da da-da da
I always say how I don’t need you
But it’s always gonna come right back to this
Please, don’t leave me
I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me
I can’t be without, you’re my perfect little punching bag
And I need you, I’m sorry.
Da da da da, da da da da
da da da da-da da
Please, please don’t leave me
Baby please don’t leave me
No, don’t leave me
Please don’t leave me no no no
I always say I don’t need you but it’s always gonna come right back,
It’s gonna come right back to this.
Please, don’t leave me.
No.
No, don’t leave me
Please don’t leave me, oh no no no.
I always say how I don’t need you
But it’s always gonna come right back to this
Please don’t leave me
Please don’t leave me 